The best part about winter is that on the rare day when it’s warm enough to wear one layer with an overcoat and probably leave your hat at home, when you can breathe in deeply without feeling your chest tense up in defense against the cold air coming in, when the sun is shining and it’s at peak bright and it hits the top of a golden standpipe on an otherwise clean but what I really mean is bland sidewalk, when you’ve been questioning everything, most especially yourself, and you’re really starting to wonder, is this all there is?, it’s hard not to take the moment to think: it might be enough.
I have always struggled with this, wondering if there was more? To do more! Be more? What’s the purpose of all this? Is it enough? Are we enough? The more I dig and contemplate this- The more I realize, it has to be enough. We need to feel that it is. Because we are. Not for anything we do, but because we just are.
Or because there are two kinds of people in the world!!! Those who find motivation in pursuit and those who find it in stillness. Actually that’s too binary — we probably all have both these parts in us, but lately the thought of enough ness is really helping me. Wasn’t the case 10 or even 5 yrs ago. Thanks for this wise comment :)
:) thank you!!! for all your thoughtful insight! Wasn’t a thought for me up until 3 years ago too- sometimes you have to fall/feel low to see this- /see clearly. We all do have both inside us, and feeling motivation in stillness (you worded it best) is what’s more challenging but also more intrinsic.
It reminded me a monocycle episode you were mentioning the pain of breathing cold air. It made me felt the exact feeling you were describing and I still remember it like a good book. I miss the monocycles btw.
I have always struggled with this, wondering if there was more? To do more! Be more? What’s the purpose of all this? Is it enough? Are we enough? The more I dig and contemplate this- The more I realize, it has to be enough. We need to feel that it is. Because we are. Not for anything we do, but because we just are.
Or because there are two kinds of people in the world!!! Those who find motivation in pursuit and those who find it in stillness. Actually that’s too binary — we probably all have both these parts in us, but lately the thought of enough ness is really helping me. Wasn’t the case 10 or even 5 yrs ago. Thanks for this wise comment :)
:) thank you!!! for all your thoughtful insight! Wasn’t a thought for me up until 3 years ago too- sometimes you have to fall/feel low to see this- /see clearly. We all do have both inside us, and feeling motivation in stillness (you worded it best) is what’s more challenging but also more intrinsic.
It reminded me a monocycle episode you were mentioning the pain of breathing cold air. It made me felt the exact feeling you were describing and I still remember it like a good book. I miss the monocycles btw.
Always wonderful to read your insightful musings ❤️❤️